Why is high school so debilitating? Doesn't even seem to matter that I am 20 years removed. This still stressed me out!
And since I am a girl, almost all day I have tried to decide what to wear ... GASP! What outfit will give the impression that I want to leave people with. And then I think - lllllaaaaammmmmeee! Why am I worried about this?!?
Ok, I had friends and enemies alike call me by one word thinking that should explain everything about me. Cheerleader. Yes, I was a cheerleader. Because of that, lots of people knew me. But, I also worked very hard to be friendly to everyone. I had a lot of acquaintances from all different groups of people. East side. West side. Rich. Poor. Punks. Preppies. Older. Younger. I also worked really hard to have good grades. And to set myself up for future success. Could I have been better? Sure. Couldn't we all! But, I feel like I did "enough." 😉
I think in my mind, people must assume that high school was easy for me and that I lived a charmed life. As such, I think people possibly judged me too harshly at times.
So, now I am 37, going back to be with people who for the most part I haven't seen in decades. What story do I want them to take away from their interactions with me? Most of all, I want people to know that I am a sincere, kind person who is secure and pleased with her life. I have a wonderful family - the best! I have a beautiful, comfortable home. My marriage is solid. I am educated, but have chosen to stay home with my children. I have been extremely fortunate. It didn't come without trials, struggles & hardships. But, I am super happy with where I am in this stage of my life. And, looking forward to what's going to happen this next 20 years.
So, tomorrow I really want to be reunited with my self-confidence. I also pray I can be attentive to people and leave them feeling better & happier than when they came to me. I hope I can leave an impression of the true me. The one that doesn't have a label.
But, really ... What necklace goes with that???
